Reports from workshop participants
I have been through a very powerful and I hope transformative time since the workshop. I have really owned that part of me that is traumatised and I have allowed it full expression which has led me into a very painful place of grieving, acknowledgement and a strong connection and opening to my mother and that flow of love that passes from her to me and on to my own daughter. I know and realise that she loved me and she is my mother. It all of a sudden hit me and I took it into my heart and let the inner child be nourished by it.
Also I had a strange experience (all this happened in one session of sitting and allowing) where my life flashed before my eyes with complete depth and clarity. I 'saw' my life, the people who were part of it, the episodes that touched me, the feelings that went though me, the people who were gone, the lost loves and hopes and dreams. I saw the suffering and the absolute desperation as I felt the pain that came with realising that it was not supposed to be that way. I felt the pain of mans' suffering and the futility of the way we try to find happiness. I saw the lost little girl who has been so desperate to find love that she looked anywhere and every where never finding it. I felt the closed heart and the brick wall that will not be vulnerable no matter if it kills me.
And I let go. I let go of all the ‘shoulds’ and the barriers and I played sad songs and howled for what was and what might have been.
And I got connected. I got connected with my life, with me and with my heart.
I stopped telling myself to pull myself together and let myself sink into the abyss and I just felt and observed and trusted. I am now rising up and I feel better. I know I have completed a massive thing though I don’t know or care what it means.
When I was in the depths of despair I allowed my inner child to ask for what she needed and I rang my sister and asked her to come and sit with me and love me just the way I was, all weak and un-together and I cried and let her see. And you know what, the world didn’t end! So now I am trusting and listening and it is amazing at how it is benefiting every area of my life, especially my work. I did a session today with a client that just blew my mind. I just trusted and allowed myself to be open to 'that' and a new immensely fine vibration came through for her.
Yesterday I did something brilliant too. I did a constellation for a client with pillows. I didn’t intend to; it just arose out of itself and she was deeply touched and healed by it. I just let the energy come in and trusted both her experience and mine and it was incredible. Blimey, what wonderful magic.
Gabriella